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an autopsy of desire

Excerpts.


The good looking ones are the most disappointing.

The Problem.

"I don't need you to give me a voice. I have a voice. The problem is no one listens to it."

. . .

Options.

"Look. Don't feel sorry for me. Don't you dare feel sorry for me. I chose this. Of all the things I can do, this works. It give me options. I'm sorry if you don't like what I do. That's as far as it goes."

. . .

The Right Words.

"We're all just animals fucking each other."

Leave it to this one. She has a knack for finding just the right words.

"You see it everyday," she went on. "Don't tell me you don't. It's behind every headline you print. It's why you people have a job. Some of us are just more upfront about it."

. . .

What Really Matters.

"Think you're something, right? You got to stick your dick in her. She moaned for you.

"You know what? You didn't get anything that really matters.

"You didn't get invited to her son's birthday party.

"Or her mom's wake."

. . .

They Try Harder.

"Sure, we talk about the guys behind their backs. It's good for a laugh. All the girls agree. The good looking ones are the most disappointing. A lot of noise and—that's it? The average guys—they try harder. I'm much more likely to orgasm with a guy who tries than with one who thinks he's a champ because he's buff and wears a nice suit."

. . .

Two Reasons.

"There are two reason girls get involved in this," she began. "One is to support their families. The other is because they like being in the middle of the shit."

. . .

Thank You.

"I'm not through being mad at you," she said. "But I wanted to tell you something."

"You told our stories. I knew you would. Thank you."

With that, she turned and walked away. She didn't look back.

I knew she wasn't going to.

. . .

BACK.

It hurts. It costs. La máquina no da cambio. MORE.